WOLF MOON

I have a magnet on my fridge that I love. It is a quote by C. S. Jung that says, “The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.”

I have been trying to figure out an analogy for the relationship I have with a man who seems to have no boundaries, and is easy to get to know, but in the end, I am not sure what is at at his core. Is it hidden for a reason, or is it just I that do not know him? I like that I can be my best self with him, but I am aware that how I feel is generating from me, although clearly catalysed by him.

At first I thought of him as an atom with multiple valencies, knowing full well that if I was to describe myself as an atom, I would have very few valencies, and once bonded, I have few others free. This man, on the other hand, seem to possess van der Waal forces, bonding loosely with everyone, never seeming to fail to have room for more.

Then I thought of him in terms of gravity, and thought he was more like the moon, with a low gravitational pull. This allows so many of us to walk near his surface and be amazed, but in the end, most of us did not pull him and he only pulled us loosely too. It is difficult to know what is at his core. Maybe there is only the reflection of others that we see. Still, this power is wonderful and I enjoy being in its presence.

I love the moon, especially when it is low and big and full.

I am not sure how I feel about this man. It does, however,  scare me, because I once fell for a guy who let me see myself in the best light for a while, but had nothing at his core. He seemed like the moon, reflecting my best side, but in the end, he was a dying star, and after giving up his last light for reasons I will never understand, he ended up imploding like a black hole. Over time, it became clear that he was only near me to take everything he could from from me, like a vacuum, which I was able to escape, but at great personal cost. I can't afford to make such a mistake again. I liked who I was with him at the beginning, but in the end, he was like the Wizard of Oz, and once the curtain was pulled back, there was nothing to him, and I lost much more than I gained.

Here is the list of this year's full moons. Look for them! Today is the wolf moon.