Sunday, April 24, 2022

WOKE RACISM

How good intentions may be hurting Black America

John McWhorter, linguist

1619

?Beginning 

First wave anti-racism

Civil rights act 1964

Voting rights act 1965

Desegregation, battling disenfranchisement

Second wave anti-racism

1970

Unconscious racism

Not all problems were solved post desegregation

Third wave anti-racism

2020 post George Floyd

Reparations

Is it logical or is a sermon? If it’s not logical, it may a religion

“Passion play” “Minuet” “Virtue signaling”

“Hyperwoke”- internally focused, betrays black communities with gestures, not action

Based on a suspension of disbelief (on extremes, a faith, an ideology, akin to)

Defund the police, Black Lives Matters

”Soft Bigatry of low expections”, if black students do poorly at the test, get rid of it instead of reflecting and changing the underlying reasons for it

Marginalizes people for trying not to be racist but without perfect result

Being fired for saying something judged to be racist because it was about a person of colour

“That’s exotic” (new, novel, we haven’t see this before)

Not for those exploited by racism, but a thing in itself

???meta

If you are not centrally commit battling power difference, you are part of the problem, you are immoral, and you are marginalized and shamed mercilessly. 

SUGGESTIONS:

Phonics is better for kids without books at home

Social injustice of not being able to read impacts all further schooling

Distrust your impulse to suppose that people who think like you don’t think like you are either naive or evil. 

With any debate, disagreement is not just about facts nor moralities. It’s usually about differing priorities about which you might argue but that’s different from decreeing that people are stupid or bad. And that’s what a diverse and large society is all about. That’s what diversity of opinion is.

From 72. Leaving Black People in the Lurch

April 22.2022

People I (Mostly)Admire



Friday, April 22, 2022

WELLNESS REFLECTION NUMBER ONE

 In an attempt to cope better with Friday nights alone, I have started to schedule time for wellness, or some will call it, well-being. 

Today this is easy to do because I spent the day hiking in the outdoors on a cool spring day with a good friend that lets me say and be who I am, and likes me because of it. She is a rare gem! 

I have spent the week with certain necessary deprivations, and have made a few exceptions. I gave up sugar, coffee, and wine, but it was a tough week to start a new 60 day habit, what with Easter candy, and leftover bird’s nests from my kid’s generous giveaway at school. I did have a tea with condensed milk (should have used that up before starting!) and tonight I ate both cocoa oatmeal coconut haystacks with Easter eggs instead of saving one for later. Still, I ate late at night only once, and the overall balance of eating was NOT bingeing. Win win!

I like to breakdown personality traits (we too often throw around traits like pathologies) and we are both introverts, so that’s fun too. But there is no breakdown of what makes a person happy, and we both recognized the need for a person (especially in an institution) to be in the sunshine, and feel the wind, and smell the grass, and taste food. I may not be energized by people, and I may not be energized alone, but I am recharged by a walk in the woods, with running water, and wind gusts. I am recharged by sunshine and exercise in the fresh air. I am recharged by the company of a good friend. I am renewed by the sacred crossing with a red fox (who dislikes walking on squishy mud as much as any human!) and a herd of eight grazing deer. 


Thursday, April 14, 2022

THESE LEGS


 My mom was always hiding her legs. She had varicose veins, especially on one side, and I only remember her wearing shorts a couple of times.  It always seemed that she was embarrassed. She was probably the one who started me shaving my legs. I don't really remember a time when I didn't. I remember a few nicks around my ankles (the razors got so much better, thanks to Gillette's Venus design) and an early attempt with the sulphorous smelling nair. I missed the waxing until I was in Montreal. An expensive way, but lasted longer. I might have continued if the local esthetician wasn't hairless and gave me the impression that she couldn't related to my hairy body in any way and made it her mission to eliminate any hairs, at least in the area I paid for that day. 

The reality is that I had good legs for a while. Sure, when I was a teen, I wished they didn't taper like chicken legs that I inherited from my dad. I only had one kid, so the varicosities I had were not as bad as if I had carried three. I never shaved above my knees, so there came a day that it just didn't make any sense to me why society didn't care about some parts of my body being hairy while others were frowned upon. I am a furry person. I have arm hair and facial hair and belly hair. If I removed every one of them, it would be a fulltime job! It would also look weird to me. When I stopped running and hit my 40s, my legs started to look worn. 

When I look down on the legs I took a picture of in my 49th year, I know they are no longer great legs, but they are good legs. They work, get me where I need to go, and they are probably the best they are going to be for the foreseeable future. So I embrace the veins, the hair, the scars, and the wrinkles. Today, I celebrate these legs. These legs are my legs, and I am proud of them!

A PROMISED LAND

Barack Obama's memoir was the third similar book I had read, beginning the Michelle Obama's Becoming and Hillary Clinton's What Happened.  

His style of writing reminded of a recent read (the best book of the year to date) called The Sky Is Not the Limit, by celebrity astrophysicist Neil deGrasse Tyson. They both seem to write capsules of information. In the latter's case, some were essays published on their own. I think this is a smart way to write.

I found it interesting to see how the three authors linked together in time, and how they referred to each other, or didn't. I wondered what I missing from not reading their previous books, in the case of Hillary and Barack. At some points in all their stories, I felt angry, which I found hard to explain. 

"You show me someone okay with losing, and I'll show you a loser."

Gates: "something short of friends"

MINE: FROM PODCAST TO BOOKCLUB

Wednesday, April 13, 2022

BOREDOM KILLING YOUR CREATIVITY? TRY OBLIQUE STATEGIES

 Listening to the podcast #7 Bowie, Jazz and the Unplayable Piano, I was introduced to the character called Eno. He is British musician that was described as working with David Bowie in Berlin, and he had a pack of cards that motivated inspiration (mostly about making music, but many can be used for any creative process). The cards were used with two simple rules: Pick one. Do it. (No exchanges).

Tim Harford makes the argument that limits inspire creativity. As they say, necessity is the mother of invention!

Here is a list from Carine L'Allemand.

Abandon normal instruments 
Accept advice 
Accretion 
A line has two sides 
Allow an easement (an easement is the abandonment of a stricture) 
Are there sections? Consider transitions
Ask people to work against their better judgement
Ask your body
Assemble some of the instruments in a group and treat the group 
Balance the consistency principle with the inconsistency principle 
Be dirty 
Breathe more deeply 
Bridges -build -burn 
Cascades 
Change instrument roles 
Change nothing and continue with immaculate consistency
Children's voices -speaking -singing 
Cluster analysis 
Consider different fading systems 
Consult other sources -promising -unpromising 
Convert a melodic element into a rhythmic element 
Courage! 
Cut a vital connection 
Decorate, decorate 
Define an area as `safe' and use it as an anchor 
Destroy -nothing -the most important thing 
Discard an axiom 
Disconnect from desire 
Discover the recipes you are using and abandon them 
Distorting time 
Do nothing for as long as possible 
Don't be afraid of things because they're easy to do 
Don't be frightened of cliches 
Don't be frightened to display your talents 
Don't break the silence 
Don't stress one thing more than another 
Do something boring 
Do the washing up 
Do the words need changing? 
Do we need holes? 
Emphasize differences 
Emphasize repetitions 
Emphasize the flaws 
Faced with a choice, do both (given by Dieter Rot) 
Feedback recordings into an acoustic situation 
Fill every beat with something 
Get your neck massaged 
Ghost echoes 
Give the game away 
Give way to your worst impulse 
Go slowly all the way round the outside 
Honor thy error as a hidden intention 
How would you have done it? 
Humanize something free of error 
Imagine the music as a moving chain or caterpillar 
Imagine the music as a set of disconnected events 
Infinitesimal gradations 
Intentions -credibility of -nobility of -humility of
Into the impossible
Is it finished?
Is there something missing?
Is the tuning appropriate?

Just carry on
Left channel, right channel, centre channel
Listen in total darkness, or in a very large room, very quietly
Listen to the quiet voice
Look at a very small object, look at its centre
Look at the order in which you do things
Look closely at the most embarrassing details and amplify them Lowest common denominator check -single beat -single note -single riff
Make a blank valuable by putting it in an exquisite frame
Make an exhaustive list of everything you might do and do the last thing on the list
Make a sudden, destructive unpredictable action; incorporate Mechanicalize something idiosyncratic
Mute and continue
Only one element of each kind
(Organic) machinery
Overtly resist change
Put in earplugs
Remember those quiet evenings
Remove ambiguities and convert to specifics
Remove specifics and convert to ambiguities
Repetition is a form of change
Reverse
Short circuit (example: a man eating peas with the idea that they will improve his virility shovels them straight into his lap)
Shut the door and listen from outside
Simple subtraction
Spectrum analysis
Take a break
Take away the elements in order of apparent non-importance
Tape your mouth (given by Ritva Saarikko)
The inconsistency principle
The tape is now the music
Think of the radio
Tidy up
Trust in the you of now
Turn it upside down
Twist the spine
Use an old idea
Use an unacceptable color
Use fewer notes
Use filters
Use `unqualified' people
Water
What are you really thinking about just now? Incorporate
What is the reality of the situation?
What mistakes did you make last time?
What would your closest friend do?
What wouldn't you do?
Work at a different speed
You are an engineer
You can only make one dot at a time
You don't have to be ashamed of using your own ideas
[blank white card]

OBLIQUE STRATEGIES © 1975, 1978, and 1979 Brian Eno and Peter Schmidt (Formatted from Gregory Taylor’s web site. Composers please note: individual results may vary.)

PARENTING STRATEGY FROM THE MEDICAL AND BUSINESS WORLD

 Tim Harford is an amazing storyteller, and his podcast called Cautionary Tales is full of half-hour story arches that teaches lessons, like fairy tales to adults!

Episode 20 speaks to the idea of masterly inactivity being the opposite of micro-managing, and it rang a bell for me from the basic logic laws that all doctors follow: First, do no harm. *For some people this is easier than others. It's sometimes taught to students "just sit on your hands". It is easy for some people to want to jump into action, in an emergency, and when you child is struggling with something. If it is not truly an emergency, it is important to know that, more often than not, things will resolve themselves. In those cases, doing something might mean doing something harmful. 

Take for example that someone has fainted. I have seen it over and over an instinct to act, sitting the person up, and thus stopping the natural reestablishment of the circulation that would happen if they had been left supine, and sometimes resulting in seizure like body tremors from the brain's lack of oxygen circulation. Even in health care's hands, some nurses don't lay them flat, but use a stretcher to lower their head in a positional called Trendelenberg. This, unfortunately, decreases the ability of the heart to pump because it shunts blood away from the atrial chambers. Just leave things alone! 

I think it's important as a parent, especially with teens, but at any age, to practice masterly inactivity. When they are young, you help them establish the limits of their own body by respecting their individuality, and it sets up the boundaries they need to understand the need to grant and receive consent. When they are teens, you allow the parts of them unlike yourself to be put forward and what they want to do with it. I don't mean ignore those who have no sense of their own boundaries. You need to step in when that boisterous relative wants to kiss everyone on the mouth, or hug your shy kid when they clearly don't want it. There is a difference between politeness in greeting and non-consentual physical contact. 

CRETE/PARIS 2018

 I visited the island of Crete with two adventurous wonderful women, and we stayed on the coast on a beautiful property called Villa Le Reve, near Skepasti (google says Milopotamos). It was managed by Kostas and the Tour Company Etouri (271 Arkadiou St) in nearby Rethymno. We stayed there Saturday to Saturday, October 13-20, arriving after 15h and leaving by 11h.

We took Aegean air from CDG-HER AT566 from Charles de Gaulle, Paris at 12:05 to Heraklion arriving 16:10 and returned to Paris AT111.

We were terrible uninformed about where we were, and learned in pieces that Crete was the start of Greek civilization with the Minoan era centered at the Knossos Palace nearest Heraklion, which we never had a chance to see! We also tried to find the center of the Greek mythology, Mount Olympus, but due to difficult navigating and roads littered with rockfall, we never saw that either!

In fact, the whole trip was based on a geographical error. In her desire to see the island of Corfu (or was it Cyprus), my friend convinced us to go with her, and she found the villa, and we ended up in Crete!

What we did see was amazing, with harrowing adventures of incredible driving (not me, Tina!), swelling tides with brave naked swimmers, thorny rocky fields with noisy grazing goats, construction of incredible roadways and fortresses, and the ever-changing Aegean sea and sky. 

The pool was extravagant, and bracing! The electricity was solar, until it was a noisy generator when that ran out. The place locked up like a fortress, but it would take a determined person just to find it, winding up terrible roads and twisting turns to get there and back. 

The driving was difficult, but we bought the insurance that covered everything, including the undercarriage, and had no regrets. The drivers were very respectful, and we saw evidence of a bus route along the major roads, but would have a long walk down to them and back.

In Paris, we stayed at Hotel Marcel Ayme, where I discovered that this author had inspired street art that I remembered from a previous trip to Montmartre (in the steps of Amelie Poulin) with his book le Passe-Muraille (The Man Who Walked Through Walls) .

DU COLLEGE METRO

It was a long, harrowing, nausea-inducing, unwelcome ride to work last week, but it did get me to a metro I didn't remember visiting before.

It turns out the 202 East comes to the same bus stop as the 485 East, and leaves 1 minute before.

Classic colours from the 60s with clever design.

End of the benches of Du College and more floor detail

It wetted my appetite for a systematic visit for the Montreal metro system.

Sunday, March 27, 2022

MY ELECTORAL DISTRICTS

 National Assembly 

Nelligan 

MNA


Canadian Parliament

Lac-Saint-Louis

MNA

Tuesday, March 15, 2022

MONTREAL BIKE TRAILS

  VELO QUEBEC

US STATE ABBREVIATIONS

Gary Gulman is comedian that does a great bit with the very real problem of shortening the states to a two letter abbreviation. It's a postal norm that I still find terribly challenging. 

Here he is on How the States Got Their Abbreviations.

Here is the list to make it clear:






State/District             Postal Code

Alabama                     AL
Alaska                     AK
Arizona                     AZ
Arkansas                     AR
California                    CA
Colorado                     CO
Connecticut                CT
Delaware                    DE
District of Columbia  DC
Florida                    FL
Georgia                    GA
Hawaii                    HI
Idaho                    ID
Illinois                       IL
Indiana                      IN
Iowa             IA
Kansas              KS
Kentucky           KY
Louisiana           LA
Maine                  ME
Maryland          MD
Massachusetts MA
Michigan         MI
Minnesota MN
Mississippi MS
Missouri         MO
Montana         MT
Nebraska         NE
Nevada                 NV
New Hampshire NH
New Jersey NJ
New Mexico NM
New York NY
North Carolina        NC
North Dakota ND
Ohio         OH
Oklahoma OK
Oregon         OR
Pennsylvania PA
Rhode Island RI
South Carolina.       SC
South Dakota SD
Tennessee TN
Texas         TX
Utah         UT
Vermont        VT
Virginia        VA
Washington        WA
West Virginia        WV
Wisconsin        WI
Wyoming        WY

Territory/Associate Abbreviation Postal Code
American Samoa                 AS
Guam                                 GU
Marshall Islands                 MH
Micronesia                         FM
Northern Mariana Islands MP
Palau                                 PW
Puerto Rico                                 PR
Virgin Islands                         VI

It is notable that in 1967 the abbreviation for Nebraska changed from NB to NE to avoid confusion with New Brunswick!


TECUMSEH

 Near my house, on the way to the nearest Costco, I cross a street called Tecumseh

What I did not know was this is the name of a Shawnee chief and warrior, born in what is now Ohio. He was a folk hero, travelling widely and forming a Native American confederacy. 

His younger brother Tenskwatawa became known as the Shawnee Prophet, who founded a religious movement that rejected European influence and valued their traditional lifestyle. 

The two brothers would go on to establish Prophetstown, Indiana, a multi-tribal community, that would be destroyed by Americans in 1811. 

In the War of 1812, Tecumseh joined with the British, helping capture Detroit. He participated with the British in the failed campaign against the Americans in Ohio and Indiana. When US Naval Forces took control of Lake Erie in 1813, he retreated with the British into Upper Canada (a town near Windsor is named after him), and was killed at the Battle of the Thames on October 1813. 

His death lead to the collapse of the conferacy, and the lands he fought to defend were ceded to the US government.

THE DROPOUT

 It's a lot more functional for me to drop into a podcast wormhole, because I can listen to it incessantly while commuting, doing dishes, laundry, shovelling, exercising, cooking and cleaning. A similar binge of video makes my bum a little flatter and wider, so when I started to watch The Dropout on Disney, it was fortunate that only a few episodes existed in video, whereas the podcast series had 24 episodes that I have eaten up in the last week while staying relatively active and productive!

If you don't know the story, it's a gripping one. Another Stanford dropout becomes a billionaire, but this time it's a woman. Elizabeth Holmes was, for a few years, the youngest female billionaire, by founding and becoming CEO of a Silicon Valley company called Theranos (therapy and diagnose) based on a revolutionary idea that blood tests didn't need to from a traumatic needle in a vein, but from a small quantity of blood from a smaller puncture to the fingertip. Unfortunately for many, it was never a reality, and Elizabeth's trial is followed from the beginning to the verdict. 

Attorney Jay Edelson says in the Verdict: January 5, 2022

"I think overall this is going to lead to a tremendous shakeup in Silicon Valley. We've had 20 plus years of Silicon Valley playing fast and loose with facts, and everyone kind of just agreed that it was okay, and it really isn't okay. It's not okay to steal a billion dollars ... It concerns me that Elizabeth Holmes was, at the time, the most prominent female startup, and the number of men who have gotten away with stuff that Elizabeth Holmes did, if not worse, it would fill (you know)journals. I do, just as someone who believes so much in consumer rights in not defrauding people, I am glad about this guilty verdict. It makes me uneasy that.. um, I don't want there to be one scapegoat here. I am not saying that she didn't do anything wrong. She deserves her sentence, but I think that there are a lot of other people, a lot of men, who have done similar things, and I hope that justice will done in other instances as well."

Silicon Valley investor and critic Roger McNamee  Crime and Punishment: October 12, 2021, 23:43

"The thing about Elizabeth Homes that I look at, that gives me hope for humanity: you wouldn't have had to go back more than 5 years when it would have been impossible for a woman to raise that kind of money, even for a great idea. Men have been raising money for bad ideas for a really long time... that actually represents social progress."

WORDLE

It seems ironic and slightly frustrating that the name of this popular online game of solitaire is six letters long, when it only calls for five. It's a lot easier to find a word six letters long, so each time I have to find with five, it is a challenge.

This game reminds me of the game mastermind, but it seems more fun and marvellous that I can shuffle through my unseen dictionary of my memory and find a solution with 6 attempts almost all of the time. 

It's become a daily habit, and a monitor of my fatigue. When I find myself putting the yellow letters in the same place instead of moving it to any other spot, I know I need to check my fatigue, hydration, and nutrition.

If you haven't heard of it, you need to try it. Apparently it exists in other languages. Maybe I'll look for the french version next. 

Thursday, March 10, 2022

LISA COOK

 The study of economics in my life has largely been a post-secondary personal pursuit. My high school teacher gave me the impression that the financial system was increasingly unknowable following the uncoupling of currency and gold. Additionally, our investment into Air Canada (which was, to be fair, only a year long) was a failure, earning less on the sale then we had put it, which hurt in 1989 when a GI was returning 10%. Needless to say, I learn to save, and invest safely, which doesn't help me much in the current market. 

Since then, I have moved from personal budgets to financial planning to investment. I am still learning, so a few years ago, when I happened on a podcast called Planet Money, I began to see that economist have a point of view on far more than money. From my personal viewpoint, they are some of the greatest modern philosophers in the world. They analyze date and come up with solutions. They have insight into almost every system out there, and that is very exciting and comforting!

One such economist has sparked even further interest in her extensive historical research. Her name is Lisa Cook, and her articles are worth reading.The podcast called Patent Racism that introduced her to me was on Planet Money was an analysis of black racism and the impact of black innovation. She found that people's general understanding of the history of black was lacking, and even had to provide that as the basis of her economic study and argument that lynching/violence kills innovation while it's killing victims. It's a pivotal note in history, and a modern day cautionary tale. 

From her work, I was introduced to the lynching of Emmitt Till (and his remarkable mother, in Women of the Movement on Global), the devastation of the Tulsa Race massacre (imagine your neighbourhood razed to the ground), and the Tuskegee report on lynchings (a brutal short history here).

 Racism and lack of diversity kills innovation, and both need to be avoided. The paper that started it all is titled: Violence and Economic Activity  with its abstract.

Here is a talk she gave on Diversity and Innovation. Another on What Promotes Or Kills Innovation?

Here is the blueprint for the present proposed implementation for an Innovation Economy, called the Hamilton Project.

I look forward to follow and aspiring to more Lisa Cook ideas.

BOOK REVIEW: THE INCONVENIENT INDIAN


 Logo of the Royal Commission on Aboriginal People

CLEANING UP MY PHOTOS

 I have too many photos. Lots of people say it, but I really mean it! I have reached the limit of my computer's generous memory capacity with over 600 GB of photos. 

I love most of the these photos, and now most of them are on computer. If they hadn't been, I would likely have a room full by now, so I am glad for the technology. Here's what I didn't realized, though, about the technology. My photos are replicating, like mice in the attic, and they need tending, more than a physical collecction does. 

As I write, my photo app is being repaired. This is the second "library" of photos that I am doing, with yesterday's first main library now finished. There is one more after that, and then the plan is to import 2 of the older ones to the main one, and see what redundancies I can get rid of.

One of the problems of digital photos is that there is little urgency to edit, and then all of a sudden I have thousands of pictures that have multiples, either because my device reloaded twice and didn't notice, or I take a series of 5 photos of my teen each time in an attempt to get one decent photo without tongue sticking out or eyes rolling.

Here are some critical steps from apple support (the website is great, but the phone service even greater, and when they end they send links to the website that I should have found in the first place but didn't understand until they walked me through). 

I am trying to avoid calling again, and more comfortable to look online for help if my notes fail me, but here is the number to book a followup just in case: 1-800-275-2273. Ask for photos/creative media.

It all starts with OPTION key then one-click photos. The system library default is called Photos Library. It took several hours yesterday to repair it, and today I am repairing Photos library A and probably iPhoto library. When I migrated photos following a robbery years ago, I restored from a hard drive and I think I missed the step of deleting after importing. I will not make that mistake again!

An important setup for any longer task, including upkeep of the latest operating system is to go to SYSTEM PREFERENCES, then ENERGY SAVER, then choosing: prevent your mac from automatically sleeping when the display is off, wake for network access, and Enable Power Nap.

When the libraries are repaired, I will OPTION PHOTOS and make sure in finder that I am in PHOTOS LIBRARY. I will go to FILE, then IMPORT PHOTOS LIBRARY A, then iPHOTO LIBRARY. Then I will laugh and cry and brutally edit the collection until I have only one copy of the photos I want to keep. Then I will say thank you and good-bye and delete forever 400 GB of data, and back up my SINGULAR photo library. Oh, happy day! I can feel the burden lifting from my shoulders already! 

March seems like a good month to make a photo book. I have 23 years to catch up on!



Monday, January 31, 2022

VIRTUAL ESCAPE ROOM

 We signed up with virtualescaping.com for a game called Artifact Isle.

We could be a team of 6 but ended up with only 5, for a reasonable price of $35.

We were recommended to sign on a few minutes before, on a desktop, laptop, or newer ipad (2019), with 90 minutes to escape. We meet in a lobby, where we can strategize before pressing the start button. The team leader is the first person on the platform. We communicated within the ingame video chat.

If we get stuck, we can have up to 3 hints during the game. Another hint we were given was that not all clues will solve a problem at the same location as you find the clue, so I plan to take notes! Apparently, we may also have to split up to be in different locations around the island to solve the clues.

I am excited!

What I know:

I was given a diary from my late grandfather, and the information in it leads me to a forbidden cave and its treasures. My grandfather, and others, have been at this island, but no one seems to have survived. There are many clues to find, but the island is sinking!

From the pictures, there is a tropical beach with a 3 digit code, there are totems that are built in different sequences, there is cave with wooden crates and a movie projector, and a manmade entrance with totems on either side.

Things we had to do:

notice colours, groups of things, maps

CODES: coloured shape directions, codes, scramble words

Things I learned - if I have the key, I am fast! "Put me in coach. I'm ready to play, today!"

Even virtual escape rooms are fun!

Not everything means anything!

I like cooperation. People who just play around and don't explain themselves don't contribute much to the team. I

TIPS from The Escape Game

1. Communication is the key. Clearly and continually communicate. There are no bad ideas. Speak up if you think something is worth exploring. Close the loops.

2. Your game guide is an invaluable tool. Have them search the entire space after entering the room. 

3. When in doubt, ask for a clue. Don't get stuck too long on any one puzzles. There will be a lot to solve!

4. Make sure you are online in advance, and that you have everything you need downloaded before your start time!

5. Split your screen if you can.

6. Computers and laptops are better than ipads, so that you can see both your teamates and your game dashboard at the same time.

7. If you can, get a 360 degree scan of the room on entering.

8. Keep a pen and paper handy, to decipher or rearrange numbers, letters or words. 

9. Give clear instructions to your game guide.

10. Stay organized! Keep track of clues items and kinds of locks and codes you need to escape, and where you found them!

Have fun!

Wednesday, January 26, 2022

CLEANING UP MY RAM

I am almost not even able to use my computer. It am no longer able to open anything without delay, and when I use the "sweeping" app EaseUS CleanGenius, I have no memory freed, even though I have 3 GB in inactive memory, and the free memory is 110 MB of 8 GB!

So I am going to restart my computer (I tend to leave it on because the startup takes too long), and follow this advice.

These are the steps will try and update:

1. Restart your computer. Done

2. Update software. Done

3. Change browser. Still using safari.(chrome/firefox are better for RAM)

4. Clear my cache. This helped.

Finder-- Go tab--Go to folder dropdown--~/Library/Caches--Go to folder--Edit tab--Select All--File tab--Move to trash

5. Disable extensions

Recommended to follow:

Spotlight (command+space)

Finder -- Preferences -- right click -- clear (chose open folders in tabs --instead of new window)

Activity -- memory - i (information) -- quit (i didn't highlight and didn't recognize ANYTHING!)
              -- CPU 

Lastly, recommended to advanced user (so for me, to be used with caution as a last resort!)
Open TERMINAL
Write "sudo purge"
This should clear inactive

Tuesday, January 11, 2022

BOOK REVIEW: GARCIA'S HEART

Liam Durcan may have written his Opus Magnum, and if I were him, I would incredibly proud to have peaked with this novel. It is complex, beautifully written, and required me to google definitions, geography, history and art!   

I have not read his short stories, which was the first thing he published, but I did read The Measure of Darkness, which was well-done and a fascinating idea (an architect that loses both a portion of his vision and the ability to understand its loss i. e. neglect), but the character is not very sympathetic. 
In contrast, the protagonist in this story (one of only a few characters that is NOT a Garcia) is complex while still being sympathetic.

This is credited to being a "neurologic narrative" (Barbara Sibbald CMAJ), although I saw an interview where Dr. Durcan minimizes his role as neurologist in writing. Certainly, both novels I read do not overdo it, but have been certainly well-informed by his medical knowledge. I also learned in an interview that he doesn't do research, but his character Patrick refers to those who do as "narcissistic". 

I loved his imagery, and there were so many perfect phrases and sentences that, at first, I started writing them down, but had to stop, because I would have needed pages to note them all!

Here are a few gems:

"A boat. Affluence squared. The confluence of money and stretches of leisure time."

"The trumpet of Josh's raised righteous voice ushering them out."

"The allegations against Hernan outlined in the book were like anti-matter, altering the rules of the universe as he knew it."

"...causing his heart to make that thin-air no ropes climb into his throat."

When his heart started beating fast with emotion: "He knew the circuitry: pathways converging on his amygdala that, in response, fired like an automatic weapon, a heartbeat pattering after, spent shell casings bouncing off the floor."

And my favourite: "For all of the mighty tasks a brain was capable of doing, nothing was underrated as the ability to forget."

Here are some vocabulary words:

prosopagnosis - loss of ability to recognize faces
beatific - blissful
Shibboleth - the motto or catchphrase identifying yourself with a group (something that distinguishes outsiders from the group, as in Judges with the pronounciation of the Ephraimites of the word enough to betray them and have them killed
autodidact - a self-taught person
scion - descendent of a notable family
parse - analyze for underlying structure or meaning
redolent - fragrant

Some ideas:
Crying baby dilemma thought experiment and fMRI (solved by a mother in the novel) 
Classically utilitarianism says killing the child to save the village is worth it (John Stuart Mill) vs Deontology says that killing the child is wrong (Kant)

Declaration of Tokyo (hadn't read it!)
A physician shall not "countenance, condone or participate in the practice of torture" (boarding in ER with no lights being able to be switched off, etc.

Always the ornery editor, I thought the spelling "en-passant" strange coming from a Montrealer, and would have spelled it in French italics "en passant". I wondered if it was blooper on the beach at Scheveningen that the sand was between them and Germany, when I think it would have more like England. Lastly, he refers to something gravely important not to "bear repeating". I think it does bear repeating, but she doesn't. That should be described some other way. 

Still, nitpicking aside, this is a monumental work crafted sentence by sentence like Lin Manuel Miranda wrote the raps for Hamilton. It's worth the read, and a real credit to the writer.

I have two things I have to ask next time I see him on consult service: When is Flash Forward coming out (I look forward to a female protagonist), and what's the deal with the cover art? The brain is oriented upside down, where does Mercury and the letters K and S fit in, and is that a sea anemone?!

And if you need a reader for your next novel, I am happy to give my feedback! I am looking to transition to another career, and proof-reader would be one place I can see myself!

Read it! 4/5

BOOK REVIEW: MADNESS OF CROWDS

 A book a year is an incredible feat, and Louise Penny continues to deliver. Sometimes, though, I wonder if the editing was really finished, and whether or not extending the deadline wouldn't improve some of her last works. This was one of them.

One of things that kept repeating in my head while listening to the audiobook, was the warning from Stephen King (or was it George Lucas, or was it Stephen King to George Lucas in reference to Jar Jar Binks) to "Kill your darlings".

If Ruth's duck never said "Fuck Fuck Fuck" again, I would be forever grateful. How long do ducks live, anyways? It feels like Rosa is getting far fetched in her survival, even if Ruth is somehow providing her optimal care, which I wouldn't think is being carried around everywhere. 

How many times did she refer to "The Asshole Saint", and sometimes still needed to repeat who he was. We know! Your readers are not idiots!

I got tired of hearing about specters, even though I spent advent reading Dickens and watching different versions of The Christmas Carol. Referring to specters in the Victorian era is okay. More than once is too much in 2021!

That being said, Ms. Penny tells a nice story while making social commentary appropriate for the times. 

The most annoying conclusion, but who could know how little omicron would be affected by the vaccine, was that the pandemic was over with herd immunity from vaccinations, and life returned to normal, but she gets to write fiction, so I can accept this and move on.

I did find that a Nobel Peace Prize winner was an unlikely guest in Three Pines, and was disappointed that she was played as the simpleton at first. I was honestly aggrieved by Gamache's decision to ignore his son-in-law's breech of protocol, and not upholding the morals that he dug in with in the past with much more at stake. 

Unless this is going somewhere, if Gamache is no longer Gamache, I think it's time to develop other character and go somewhere other than Three Pines.

It's worth a read, but not a recommendation. 3/5

BOOK REVIEW: VIRAL BY ROBIN COOK

 I picked up this (audio)book while waiting for the one I really wanted to read, Pandemic. It has not been easy. I thought that this was a departure for Robin Cook, and read reviews that agreed with me, but when I reviewed the 35 odd books that Robin Cook has written, I realized that I haven't read that many, and what I read was a very long time ago.

Coma was old paperback copies when I read it, but that was still back in the 1990s when Kevin Bacon played a medical resident in Flatliners. I would have to look at the stories of Fever, Outbreak, and Vital Signs to be sure I actually read them. For me, Robin Cook was a master of medical thrillers, but maybe I didn't read that many of them!

Fast forward to this week, and I found myself reacting badly to the unsympathetic character that leads the story. His idyllic life falls apart when his wife contracts "EEE" on the beach at Cape Cod, and his low budget insurance plan becomes a looming debt that he cannot pay. It should be a tragedy, but his egocentric brain carries on without feeling any human emotions of grief and loss, he outsources his sick daughter to a variety of women, including strangers that are all more than eager to serve his needs for free, and he gets angry at every turn of events, bordering on entitled rage with every emergency encounter. 

It drove me nuts!

The reader of the audiobook made a few mistakes, calling Ver-sed "Versed", and the French patient was called the male french version Jean  when it was supposed to be Jeanne. (True, Jean in English as a female sounds like denim, but you still have to say the -n at the end when you say it in French!) The accent varied too much for me, and I would expect that any French speaker who repeatedly used the colloquial word "shannanigans" may not be speaking with an accent. Similarly, he assumed the American ER doc who has a Sikh name had an East Indian (?Irish) accent, when it was more likely he talked like an American, because he was! 

I kept waiting for the husband to find out that his wife's cardiac arrest was a medical error, with Versed 5 then 10 mg more in keeping with Valium doses, and possibly the reason she died, and not the seizure. Alas, that was not the plot twist.

I have great sympathy for the writing of a bad book. Even that takes a monumental effort. I wondered if at age 80, we are seeing the cognitive decline expected of the age or if a ghost writer was writing their first attempt at a copy cat (the name Robin Cook, like Robert Ludlum, is a brand unto itself). The prose was tediously repetitive, and the story read like a report, with no plot, no tension (except for the toxicity that emanated from the un-woke immature man that unfortunately talked the entire time), and no complexity of emotion or normal life. Characters were one dimensional, and the ideas were pat (no charge, everyone perfectly followed the covid precautions, a woman hired for her business savvy and another who was a total stranger were used as caregivers with the father oscillating between overreaction to neglect of his daughter, and in total denial of the needs of his family, colleagues and himself. If this was the tragedy, I could accept it as a character flaw, but it seemed that the author was unaware that a father could feel emotion, and make decisions that would acknowledge the feelings and needs of others, and not only himself.

What is the worst, SPOILER ALERT, this is a story of an angry shallow man who rages his way through the health care system, and repeatedly assaults health care workers verbally and then physically. His behaviour, while understandable to be inappropriate given the circumstances, is unchecked and totally inappropriate. The doctor's response of ambivalence is unlikely, given assault is uncommon, and would not be tolerated. Brian's misguided rage has no insight into what the real issue was, and his - this grief is terrible because it is no one's fault.  This reality never even comes up. 

The coming reality of mosquito borne disease in the ongoing climate changes, and the inequity of for-profit health care are real issues that bear discussing. Vigilante justice and the unlikely escape of the law is unacceptable, and unchecked misguided rage and  assault are serious issues, and not to be romanticized and oversimplified, as in this book.

I don't recommend this book, and give it a 1/5. 

Friday, December 31, 2021

FORTY-NINE BIS AND BETTY WHITE AT NINETY-NINE

It was going to be a tough Covid party to hold, so I when I cancelled my party, in the midst of my friend's Christmas dinner plans and vacations, I was feeling alone in my strictness, and a little unsure that this was the only way. It was the best way, but it felt like it cost me the most. I was at peace with the decision, but not happy about it. Six months earlier, I had given up the dream of Christmas in London and New Year's in Paris for this milestone year, in the midst of Covid, but I really had hoped to keep the tradition alive of my Megapalooza party with the wonderful women in my life. As the 5th wave broke and my peers were not protecting their shifts or me, I settled on a compromise that made me happy. A group of six who were all vaccinated, respectful people, whose lives intertwined at the best of times, plus my daughter and me. It would be sedate, but a celebration nonetheless, and an opportunity to hand down the "old lady" stick that had made its rounds down to me, the youngest of the crew.

Alas, the Christmas plans that people were making were too risky for me to have them over on the sixth day of Christmas, and I couldn't expect them to self isolate (I have a small life, but they do not) for my party in lieu of their get-togethers, that would inevitably involve eating. I wanted eating too, or it wasn't much of a party. Wearing masks, 2 m apart, no food or drink. I cancelled, and resolved that I would not turn another year older until I could get together with friends. That was my intention, until I woke up that morning. My declaration had done nothing. I was 50 and there was no way around it. 

I had stayed up late the night before, cleaning the kitchen and making crepes so that my daughter would have a treat. As the only child of a part-time single mom at home, I didn't want her to make up the lack of other people in my life, but I was hoping to inspire her to at least make a nutella banana wrap for us. Sure enough, she brought us breakfast in bed, and we ate together then read together until the doorbell rang. From that moment on, it was hectic! I have had calmer days on call, with calls coming in 2 and 3 at a time. I would hold out my phone for her to answer my cell because I was on the housephone, and I was answering the door with a phone pinched between my ear and shoulder to reach out for the package or flowers or cake! 

I had two things to do, and I only got one done, because my unplanned day was too busy! 

I went for a walk with two of my friends. We went around for longer than expected, and I was cold and ready to get back when they surprised me with a tailgate party of hot chocolate, and a box filled with gourmet goodies that only these talented ladies could do! Homemade lemoncello cake, pesto, lentil soup, fried rice, cheese and grape starter, bubbly, vichyoise, falafel mix, muffins and more! It was a box packed with love, and wrapped with reused recycling. It was kindness and love in edible form, and it was just what I would have wanted, and I didn't even think to ask for. Four of the "chicks" had gotten together, but the organization went further than that. Another neighbour came by with a tin of cookies, and the party planning friend that had insisted I do something special for the day, and I felt terrible to cancel on her, had brought her own version of a tailgate party, with a bouquet of vegetables and a tray of snacks that travelled around the world - spanish olives, french brie with crust, skewers of insalata caprese and roses of smoked salmon (her favourite protein). With real champagne (hard to find with the run on SAQ items from the warehouse strike), and balloons, added to an enourmous bouquet of flowers my parents sen, I was missing nothing but the company. ( I would have given it all up for the company in a heartbeat). 

My daughter and I ate with a new Disney movie to watch. I opened a nice bottle of Cab Sauv and we watched the show uninterrupted, only because I turned off the ringer  early on when I saw we would never make it through otherwise. The house was a mess, and my daughter was off to bed early (getting ready for the marathon of staying up past midnight tonight), so she sternly told me to leave it, and I went to bed with three books, reading until the day ended. 

So much for 49 bis, and so soon the next decades will come. 

Betty White died at 99 today, and I am inspired to have half her spririt at the end. How much she must have had at this age to be there, taking jokes and making them, as quick as ever, with a slowing of her body, but never her mind.

I have talked to people across the country over the last 24 hours, and these things stand out the most:

I don't see what others see, but what I have (at least far away and in small doses) is valuable.

I have a lot yet to do, and a lot to say, and I had better, as my Grandma would say "get cracking"!

I need to transition, and soon, to doing something that I love, for work.

I need to get my house in order, for my sake, my daughter's sake, and for the sake of the limited time I have to do many things not yet done.

I need to find a way to bounce back from a work day with a bad sleep schedule to a healthy day and good sleep. 

I need to write, and create, and record, and remind others more of how special they are.

I need to take the time alone as precious and use it for progress in solitary pursuits. I need time alone, and yet mourn when I get it and don't use it well.

I need to stop waiting for Princess Pirate to learn these things from me. I need to build the curriculum and the house systems without her. I have to stop being afraid of the loss of opportunities that she chooses not to take, and have faith that it will come to her when she is ready. 

I need to guard my introverted strengths voraciously, and be my own thinktank. If I am frustrated, I need to write about until I come up with solutions. 

I need to be alone a little longer until I cherish being alone. Until I can say no to an invitation. Until I lose my fear of missing out (FOMO).

Sunday, December 12, 2021

HOW NOT TO DIE (OR DIET)

I found a colleague from med school and residency on facebook, and he posted a lot about a healthy lifestyle that he was clearly living. He had posted a video by Dr. Michael Greger, and I watched it. This was the video of his Daily Dozen Checklist.  I was impressed by the story of his grandma, as well as the careful explanations of science based food science.

 I saw a list of his (whole food plant based) Daily Dozen recently, and was pleased to find that he had an app developed to help track his recommendations.

Here is the list, as I noted, of a the daily dozen:

1. Cruciferous veggies - contain suphoraphane- broccoli, cauliflower, kale, bok choy, cabbage, kohlrabi, radishes
                                     -  one serving=1/2 cup chopped raw, 1/4 cooked
2. Flax seed - contains lignans
                    -1 tablespoon ground
 
3. Beans - lentils, chick peas, edamame, miso, tempeh, tofu, kidney beans, green peas
               -1/4 c hummus or bean dip, 1/2 c cooked, 1 c fresh peas
4. Berries - strawberries, raspberries, blueberries, cherries, raisins, grapes, kumquat, cranberries
                - one serving 1/2 cup raw, 1/4 dried
5. Other fruit - apple, watermelon, 
                      - three servings of 1 medium, 1 cup raw, 1/4 cup dried
6. Greens - spinach, mesclun
                - three servings of 1 cup leafy 
7. Other veggies - tomatoes, artichokes, asparagus, beets, peppers, carrots, corn, squash, sweet potatoes, zucchini
                           - two servings of 1 cup raw leafy, 1/2 cup juice, 1/2 cup raw nonleafy vegetables, 1/4 cup dried mushrooms
8. Nuts and seeds - one serving 1/4 cup, 2 T nutbutter, 1
9. Herbs and spices - one serving=1/4 tsp tumeric
10. Whole grains -three servings=1/2 cup cooked, 1/2 bagel, 1 slice bread, 1 tortilla
11. Beverages - five servings=1 cup H2O, tea, coffee
12. Exercise - 40 minutes intense, 90 minutes moderate

When I went to the library, I was confused to find two almost identical cookbooks, with only one author name different, and a difference of publishing year of 3. Then I saw it: How Not To Die, and How Not to Diet! He had written two very similar books, and the one about weight loss predated the one about mortality. 

I like that it's open sourced, up to date, and motivating for everyone.

The checklist for How Not To Diet includes:

21 Tweaks:
(For 12 weeks?)

1. Weigh twice a day x2 (on waking and before bed)
2. Optimize Exercise timing x1 (at least six hours after your last meal, so before breakfast, or midday before late lunch) For diabetics, start exercising 30 minutes after the start of a meal and continue for 60 minutes.
3. Front-load calories x1 (make breakfast or lunch largest meal of the day - king/prince/pauper)
4. Preload water x3 (before each meal, 2 cups of cool water)
5. Preload with negative calorie food x3 (first course fruit, salad, or soup less than 100 calories)
6. Incorporate vinegar x3 (2 tsp, dressing or flavor)
7. Enjoy undistracted meals x3 (no phone, tv)
8. 20 minute rule x 3 (eat slower, chew better)
9.  Black cumin x1 (1/4 tsp)
10. Garlic powder x1 (1/4 tsp)
11. Ginger x1 (1 tsp) or cayenne pepper (1/2 tsp)
12. Nutritional yeast x1 (2 tsp)
13. Cumin x2 (1/2 tsp lunch and dinner)
14. Drink green tea x3 ( 1 cup 1 hour after each meal to avoid interfering with iron absorption)
15. Stay hydrated x1 (if your urine is never darker than pale yellow)
16. Deflour diet x1
17. Time-restricted diet x1 (under 12 hours, 7 days a week)
18. Fast after 19:00 x1
19. Sufficient sleep x1 (7 hours sleep, at regular bedtime)
20. Trendelenburg x1 (not for me with heart burn, foot of bed elevated by 8-9 inches)
21. Complete intentions  x3 (every 2 months write three new implementation intentions - if x, then y plans, then check them off when you complete them everyday)

Wednesday, December 8, 2021

FUN WORDS I SHOULD USE MORE

 "cuss" words (Dwayne Johnson)

"staffdom" (Jacob Sawa) the fantasy land that residents create in their head when they dream of soon being in control

"toxic capitalism" (someone interviewed on Planet Money)

"gerrymandering" (Hilary Clinton in What Happened) Okay, admittedly, she has more reasons to say it than me, who never talks politics, more out of ignorance than interest!

"knavery" like, "Such knavery!" while shaking my head and tsking (tutting if I was British!)


BOOK REVIEW: THE ALCHEMIST

 Paul Coehlo’s fable is philosophy’s version of The Wealthy Barber. Basic but cute. Feel excluded as a female. The shepherd creates his own personal legend, but his wife doesn’t get her own. 

Best quote: An opportunity avoided can become a curse.

Cultural reference: The (Hebrew) Urim and Thummim

Thursday, December 2, 2021

SCIENCE JOKE/TRUTH

You know that phrase, "Everything happens for a reason"?

That reason is usually physics!

Tuesday, November 30, 2021

I AM WRIMO WINNER, TOO!

 I have joined the illustrious gang of "winners" who have completed a gruelling month of writing 50,000 words for a novel. 

I reread some of it already, and it was good and bad!😄

Now, to put it all together. I am overdue in actually finishing a novel, a goal a little more recognisable in the general public than being a NaNoWriMo winner!

I would show you my certificate, but my google blog and my pdf refuse to cooperate today! You will have to take my word for it!


WRITING QUOTES FROM ESPRESSO BOT

"Whatever you choose to call it, staring into the abyss in search of an idea can be terrifying. " 
Colin Nissan (Don't Be That Guy)

"Novels do take charge of the writer, and the writer is basically a kind of sheepdog just trying to keep things on track."
John Gregory Dunne (Nothing Lost)

"The real hero is always a hero by mistake, he dreams of being an honest coward like everybody else."
Umberto Eco

"Not a wasted word. This has been a main point to my literary thinking all my life."
Hunter S. Thompson

"If I stop working and just try to enjoy myself, I get very neurotic and guilt-ridden. Orwell was the same." 
Arthur Koestler (The Sleepwalkers, The Act of Creation)

"I write slowly because I write badly. I have to rewrite everything many, many times just to achieve mediocrity."
William Gass (The Tunnel)

"People underestimate the power of writing in terms of why certain arguments stick and why they don't...My objective as a writer is not merely to write in such a way that people read it and say, 'Yeah, I think that's correct. It's to write in such a way that people are haunted. That they go to bed thinking about it, that they wake up thinking about, that they tell their spouses about it, that they tell their children and their friends about it. That they grab them by the arm and say, 'You got to read this.'"
Ta-Nehisi Coates (The Water Dancer)

"Increase your word power. Words are the raw material of our craft. The greater your vocabulary the more effective your writing."
P.D. James

"Language fits over experience like a straight-jacket."
William Golding

"Thank your readers and the critics who praise you, and then ignore them."
Harlan Ellison

"Most of us find our own voices only after we've sounded like a lot of other people."
Neil Gaiman

"Writers have a rare power not given to anyone else: we can bore people long after we are dead."
Sinclair Lewis

"Tell the whole truth. Don't be lazy, don't be afraid. Close the critic out when you are drafting something new."
Jane Kenyon (Let evening come)

"I want to be read. I want to be valued. That is perhaps the only shot at immortality a human being can have. "
Anne Rice

"It had better be quirky or perverse or thoughtful enough so that you hit some chord in them."
Nora Ephron

"Can anything be sadder than work left unfinished? Yes, work never begun."
Christina Rossetti (19th century poet)

"I'm not too keen on characters taking over, they do as they are damn well told."
Iain Banks (The Wasp Factory)

"Trust your reader. Not everything needs to be explained. If you really know something, and breath life into it, they'll know it too."
Esther Freud (Doctor Who:Attack of the Cyberman)

"I approach the work as though, in truth, I'm nothing and the words are everything."
Louise Erdrich

"You know what about writing? It doesn't have any walls."
Lidia Yuknavitch (The Night Watchman)

"Along the way accidents happen, detours get taken - the accidents turn out to be some of the best things."
John Irving

"Write toward vulnerability"
Anne Lamott (Bird By Bird)

"Write about the emotions you fear the most."
Laurie Halse Anderson (Speak, Shout)

"Writing is thinking, and if you don't think clearly about what you want to say, what story you want to tell, you will never write clearly about it."
Kevin Coyne (musician)

"You think your pain and your heartbreak are unprecedented in the history of the world, but then you read. It was books that taught me that the things that tormented were the very things that connected me with all the people who were alive, who had ever been alive."
James Baldwin (I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings)

“You can write any time people will leave you alone and not interrupt you. Or rather you can if you will be ruthless enough about it.”
Ernest Hemingway

“If you want to work on your art, work on your life.” 
Anton Chekhov

“If the stories come to you, care for them. And learn to give them away where they are needed.”
Barry Lopez 

“No object is mysterious. The mystery is your eye.” 
Elizabeth Bowen

“Avoid your weaknesses. But do this without telling yourself that the things you can’t do aren’t worth doing.”
Zadie Smith

“Here's how to write a mystery novel: at the beginning you tell a lie, and by the end you tell the truth.” Gregory McDonald

“There is no such thing as conversation. It is an illusion. There are intersecting monologues, that is all.” Rebecca West

“Above all things—read. Read the great stylists who cannot be copied rather than the successful writers who must not be copied.” 
Ngaio Marsh

“Have more than one idea on the go at any one time.” 
Geoff Dyer

“It ain’t whatcha write, it’s the way atcha write it.” 
Jack Kerouac

“The story I am writing exists, written in absolutely perfect fashion…in the air. All I must do is find it, and copy it.” 
Jules Renard

“Revision is one of the exquisite pleasures of writing.”
 Bernard Malamud

“A great deal of talent is lost to the world for want of a little courage.” 
Sydney Smith

“The most critical thing that a story must do—the tippity-top of the narrative mountain!—is make the audience feel something.” 
Chuck Wendig

“I write a story as if it were a letter to someone and essentially, that’s what you do.” 
Theodore Sturgeon

Monday, November 29, 2021

ONLY A DAY AWAY!



I feel like every graph tells a story. These are the graphs of my third NaNoWriMo. It is a story of persistence, mediocrity, chaos, neglect, and discipline. 

The first graph proves that I am not an overachiever. The second proves that I am inconsistent. Together they prove that when I want something, I can get the job done! Also, I am very motivated by deadlines!

During this month, I have worked my full compliment of shifts (can you tell which were my two work weekends :)?), vacuumed my house, kept up on laundry, changed my car's winter tires, gone out to dinner with good friends, signed a contract for a bathroom reno, visited Ottawa for an overnight getaway, participated in a book club, visited two art gallery exhibits, fed my kid three times a day, had a friend over for a late Thanksgiving dinner, hiked, shovelled, watched a few Christmas movies and shows, and caught up with friends and family.  

I am proud of what I have accomplished, but my life will be a lot simpler on December 1st without the singular focus necessary for this event!



THE ORIGIN STORY




My friend asked me last night what has inspired my love of the Chateau Laurier. I would have thought that I was born with an innate love of Fairmont hotels, but I would have been mistaken.

My earliest memory of a Canadian Pacific (CP: now the modern Fairmont) castle-like hotel was a trip that my family took to Banff. It is a memory stitched together with just a few images. Some of my memories may not have been the same year or even in the right place, but there are two things I remember strongly: waking up at least one day in the campground and doubting my dad’s proclamation that we were in the mountains, until the fog finally lifted to reveal the rock face that had been completely obscured in the dark right beside our tent, and the outrageous and hilarious freedom of wearing garbage bags with our arms poked through because of rain, feeling none of the usual embarrassment in knowing that everyone we met was a stranger anyways. 

I have a vague memory of stopping for a hot chocolate in the lobby of the Banff Springs Hotel, but maybe it was just a look in the lobby. I have a picture of the hotel that must have been taken from some height, and looking down into the valley, the hotel was the scale of Neuschwannstein, and resembled the castles that I later knew were as an adult in Europe, with the ruins of Heidelberg found in the fog being a strong memory with no photo. When I moved to Montreal, I am not sure I understood the breadth of the CP hotels that spanned the country. I think that Quebec city’s Chateau Frontenac (CF) may have been my only knowledge of a hotel with the turrets and dramatic rooftops outside of the Rockie Mountains, but I am even unsure of that timeline, and that I would have connected the two spanning such a distance as where I grew up to where I ended up. 

What I do know was that I started a file folder with the bills and room cards for all my Fairmont Hotel stays over the years, and this is the timeline that I am more certain of, although given memory’s unreliability, there is still some artistic license likely to be present.

From my records;

My first Fairmont booking was for a conference in Toronto called the North York Emergency Medicine. It was 2007, and I did not go alone, leaving my then husband and my one year old daughter to their own devices while I spent long days learning. I remember that we took pictures in our bathrobes, and that my daughter was just starting to walk with confidence, using a toddler sized rolling walker and enjoying the enormous carpeted floors of  the lobbies and hallways. The hotel was the Royal York, and I can’t remember if it was this visit, or another in 2009, but we took the train that actually brought us to the train station that still serves the hotel. 

The following year, 2008, we booked a room at the Hotel Frontenac in the summer, and now we full blown chased after the little tyke who ran away if she could! No walker needed!

In 2009, I indulged in a night to celebrate my birthday, staying at the Queen Elizabeth Hotel in hometown Montreal, with a view down on my favourite reminder of Rome (Vatican City, actually) that is Mary Queen of the World cathedral, and the incredible Sun Life Building that sits kitty-corner to it. 

The Chateau Laurier was next, during a year that I was developing the intention of becoming a  premier member.  That year was 2011, and there was a midwinter promotion in concert with the Holtz Spa in the nearby Byward market. I went with two friends that I knew from a group of long time friends. At the time I don’t think we had spent any time together by ourselves, but that trip changed things. Both of these women have become very important to me, likely beginning with that stay.  This also is likely to be the start of the idea for the book I am on day three writing. Certainly, CL is the closest Fairmont hotel to me unless I stay in Montreal, so has been the easiest to visit. It has never had the heart stopping increases in price that CF has had, and it is now officially the CP hotel that I have visited the most, thanks to my recent visit there with one of the two women that accompanied me there ten years ago. 

The three characters may have developed on a different timeline, but it is interesting to see the parallel of three women from that visit. I know that two of my original characters were based on others, and not on my travel companions, but even down to the room we had with 3 separate beds and a view to Parliament Hill feels primordial to where my story has evolved from. I also wonder if all my reading of Nancy Drew (ND) and her two best friends could have played a part. I think I may have even added a boyfriend, like Ned, to balance out the estrogen. The Mystery at Chateau Laurier was the original title, which sounds like a ND mystery, and the name stuck until my first NaNoWriMo in 2019, when I started to fill in the characters, but the mystery plot never developed, or was very awkward. 

I started going to the American College of Emergency Physicians (ACEP) conferences beginning in 2011, and travelled to quite a few cities this way. I found the cost of the exchange rate, and the demand in the US cities almost unaffordable, so was not able to consistently stay at a Fairmont. I did enjoy my stay so much in Boston at the Copley Plaza that I returned with my family, this time with a time booked to walk their lobby dog named Caty (pronounced Katey). I remember a little room in San Francisco that was the peak of what I was willing to pay for a night, especially for a room that I was literally only using to sleep in. It was steep in price, but also in real estate, and I when the sting of the cost wore off, I was glad to have stayed truly in the heart of San Fran, even if it was just for a short time. 

I started this blog in 2012 on a spinoff trip as a Rick Steves superfan with an incredible stay at the Fairmont Seattle. Eating alone turned out to heighten each meal that I ate, and certain foods still come up as fond memories. Spanish fig loaf found in a brick at the international section at the grocery store, and several failed attempts to make the breaded cheese croutons that topped a vegetable bisque soup come immediately to mind. The food was accompanied by the luxurious surroundings and a pianist! I can also recommend that fall is a great time for eating out!  

Today I was reminded why I had the idea of a treasure hunt, when I found an envelope from October 26th, 2013 addressed to Princess Pirate, Room 373, and was dotted with pastel coloured and sparkly stickers in the shape of hearts and with happy horse faces . I don’t remember the ruse, but I wrote at the top, I believe addressed to the front desk staff:

BONJOUR. LAISSEZ MOI Á LA RÉCEPTION

The first clue must have been hidden in plain sight in the room, left to be found.

It read:

Good morning, Rebecca! 

Today I have a treasure hunt for you! 

The first clue is waiting for you at the lobby’s front desk, where I checked in. Just ask for a message for room 373. 

Good luck,

Love, 

Mom (smiley face emoji)

The second clue read:

Ask your daddy to help you find Albert Einstein’s photograph. 

Below it is a desk. 

Check the right drawer for your next clue.

P.S. This poodle is for decorating our shoelaces.

The third clue read:

Good job!

You found the next clue! 

(Editor’s note: I am hearing Blue’s Clues in my head now. I think that might have been my inspiration. Unfortunately it may have also been my aspiration. This was not great work, which is why I have had so much trouble making it into an adventure worthy of a novel!)

This place I found when I visited the castle last winter.

I loved it and am so happy to use it’s hiding place today!

Don’t leave the room, but look for a lamp with a stack of books. 

Don’t be afraid to be a detective. 

Be curious - I promise it won’t break!

The fourth clue was the last clue, and it read:

Wow, that was the toughest spot to find. 

Hope you are having fun!

Now it is time to return to your room.

Find the “safest” place and press the numbers of your birthday - month. 

Don’t forget to put 0 (zero) in the tens spot + day. 

(Editor’s note: I think this is confusing, and I don’t remember what the gift was!)

Hope this is a good gift for a princess!

Enjoy your castle!

I have long admired the construct of a murder mysterday, but before binge-watching was a thing, the closest thing we could come to was binging a series of books, which was hard to do given the constant wait required repetitively for the next book in the series to be released to you after putting it on hold. Even then, with authors like Agatha Christie who had long ago finished writing, it seemed like a far-fetched idea to have so many murders around one person, usually in a small space, or in a small town. These eventually transitioned to murder mystery shows, and the sequence of so many victims quickly became too terrible for me to bear. So I have still never read all of Agatha Christie’s books, and I don’t binge watch crime shows for fear of becoming so despondant as to be suicidal. I like the “twist” though, and when I started writing this book in 2019, I thought that I would take inspiration from the idea of a letter, but it turned out not to be a very interesting device for a plot twist. 

I took inspiration at least for the protagonist Stephanie from a Tissot painting that I have loved for a long time that hangs in the National Gallery of Canada called The Letter. It is a medium sized painting set in a beautiful garden. A woman with an elegant black gown and hat from the late 19th century holds a letter in her gloved hands that she is actively shredding. The multiple pieces hang impossibly in the air behind her, as if caught by an updraft. She is surrounded by fallen horsetail chestnuts, so I always imagined the park to be in Paris. She stands on the grass, which is a big no-no in a park in France, and there is only one table behind, so although I had imagined that she was in a public place, maybe she is at her own private residence and the man behind is not a waiter but a footman maybe. I don’t know what is happening, but her face seems confident, making the expression closest to disgust. Maybe she has  been stood up with a letter carrying the excuse? Whatever is happening, she is not devastated, but this is just the beginning of a story in my mind. She is my first truly original character. She is not based on anyone I know. She is her own persona, although I have to admit, she is also the character most like myself!

So there you have it. A story written over two Novembers, from 2019-2021, started a long time ago. The three women characters have been developing on paper and in my mind for along time, and they probably met the Chateau Laurier during a cold a grey fall in 2011. It was not a trip very far away, but that weekend changed my life. It brought me to dear friendship with two extraordinary women, had me fall in love with the architecture and history of the hotel, and started my writing inspiration for the story that continues to challenge me today!